Dreams

Pause for long sigh.

Look-out!

I am always on a constant search for the following things:


from L t R: O.P.I Red Apple Nail Varnish, Balmain Jacket, Chanel Envelope Purse w/gold hardware, Christian Louboutin Hyper Prive Pump in Black Patent, Chanel Multi-Strand Pearls, O.P.I Red Varnish


-A beautiful motorcycle jacket.
-A Chanel bag.
-Multi-strand pearls/chains
-Christian Louboutin Hyper Prive's
-The perfect red nail polish

What are you always looking for?

I Had a Dream

I talk a lot about shoes, (clearly) but I've never really tapped into my dream shoe collection. I already own some great pairs of footwear, but the grass is always greener, right? Ignoring the boundaries of space and time and ($$$) here are my top five favorite shoes of right now.



5. The Yves Saint Laurent Tribute Boot.
I know everyone and their mothers have talked about this boot for the last year, but I mean, c'mon, it's beautiful. These are around $1,500.


4. Lanvin Satin Ankle-Strap Pumps
These retail at over $1,500. I can't control myself they're amazing. Crystal heels, satin bows, blush-pink seashell colour-- ahhhh.


3. Miu Miu Swarovski Platforms
Caught on to the pattern yet? Look at those heels! I'm a crow, I love shiny things. These are so luxe, I can't believe. They're $695. Shut up! SHUT UP.



2. Balmain Crystal Heels
I tried to order myself an imitation of these (see two posts down) but nothing can compare to these.



1. Christian Louboutin for Rodarte Dominatrix Heels
These will almost always be my number 1. I know they're so 'last year' already, but when I saw these in Harper's Bazaar a year ago, I cried until my tears became money. I wish. These don't even HAVE a price tag. For real. You have to phone Christian Louboutin yourself, and REQUEST a pair. Yeah. That's happening. I'm guessing (considering the Marie Antoinette shoe) that these are around $2,500. Oh god. If I win 649 these are the first things I'm tracking down. FIRST THING.


Oh, and here are the ones I left out of the top 5:



Chanel Silver Gun Heels. These are almost $4,000!



Gucci Devandra Boot. Ughhhh. These are almost $2,000.

Dreams or something

I've had a really tough two years, in terms of deciding what I want for my future. I would say it's been 100% the hardest thing I've had to do. Some people just find their niche in life easily. They love kids, so they become a kindergarten teacher. They love animals so they become a Vet or work at a shelter. For a lot of people, (including myself) it's not that simple.

I love writing. So should I be a writer? I love cooking and creating in the kitchen, so naturally I should be a chef? I love the prospect (weirdly enough) of being around middle schoolers all day. I think I could handle that. So I should definitely be a teacher.

I feel like I have so many things I want to do, but only once life to try and accomplish all of it.

The one thing I love beyond all other things, is shoes. I love the way a pair of shoes can make or break an outfit. I love how a great pair of heels can make even the most self-conscious person feel extraordinary. Most of all, I love the exhilarating feeling I get when I marry a person to the perfect shoe for their needs.

I really have, truly, thought this over for almost two years. The fact that I want to open my own business is a scary prospect. There are start-up fees, and loans to deal with; not to mention stock and decorating and repairs to any building I rent out. Owning your store, or even your own company is an insane task. I would know. My family has owned a Salon for years now, and I've sadly seen the downfalls first-hand, of doing so.

So is it fear that keeps me from doing what I love? I would hate to say I never went for the big fish because I was shaking in my (Christian Louboutin for Rodarte dominatrix) shoes.

What is the worst that could happen? My store fails? It's just money. Money. AGH. It just seems to rule everything.